Definitely humorous

Gary reminds me of my pappy. There is another town Gary that I've had a time with and he could be having a hate for me to say that he's my grandpa and giving me the middle finger. If my translation is accurate or not, I don't know, but I do know that I really do not like his sacreligious comments. Oh well.
Speaking of remarks, it does seem typical victimization games are going on. Among the women its more belittlement than specific problems. But, I guess maturity and even a personality can be a problem, but I've never liked socialism, have I? So, because of my dislike of socialism, I usually avoid criticizing another's personality. I think I may eventually be tried and tested over being a hypocrit over the issue of socialism. If I can try to be sophisticatingly strict at anything, I think its something I could try to stick to. But, my other complication of reasonable balance is there too. After that, it gets into more victimization of who the top dog will be to set the stage. ..................

I couldn't help but laugh at David. I don't completely understand my sister's and his chemistry. I really don't want to know it all, but I laughed when he called her his daughter.

As for Richard I see another connection with him. I think I'll be vague with this one because I can be selectively secretive. I don't want to be read the wrong way with sexuality either. I'm really wondering how this whole season of the apprentice is going to go. This will be an interesting watch. I think Jordan could be there too. I was friends with her cat one time, and it got really confusing. I'd call her a friend anyway, despite so many other reasons of women to be jealous with Dane. I have learned its difficult or impossible to be friends with someone who shares the same love interest.

I think Dane has already ran away already today anyway. Yeah, he goes AWOL on me all the time. No, I don't officially have him. I'm jealous, but in a sense of my suspicion I'm not taking it too personally, and it isn't a racist hate that I have against her. I really do blame the man. Life gets so twisted its impossible to say anything, call shots, or even try to let go during times I want to let go. Life is simply too twisted. Heartbreakingly twisted.
I won't take orders from her either. I don't know if he's my Delilah for life and its something I have to continuously deal and learn with.

I see some obviousness of another man I may have in my life right now. He could possibly be playing a game with me and another woman. There is a quietness that I can't yet explain. I can't recall everything. I feel there is a story that has not been completely read or comprehended.

I'll be the next: "As the Sarah Turns." Maybe I am getting set up for another wild karma game where everybody will be one with everybody in the end. I really don't know. I just hate that my life feels set up to say I'm no different.
Some are lighter and would compare it to a show the Bachelor or Bachelorette, of course the reality show is never real, but its fun to play with the idea. I simply feel uncomfortable when its not in my control; I'm clueless to who orchestrates it; I don't know what could be waiting for me; and I don't really like the way some surprises are. No wonder I ruin a lot of things.

But, back in relation to the Apprentice, I'm looking forward and wondering how this season will go.