Finally

It has been a busy week.
But, I finally caught up on the show, and still missed the criticism and remarks about office partying. It leads me to be a little confused when Trump talked to Mahsa in the board meeting. She said, "I think Brandy brings personal issues in the workplace and I am here for business." I really appreciate Donald for giving her the opportunity to say that and also for acknowledging it despite other confusion.
I've written plenty of other blogs regarding the issue and I don't feel the need to elaborate.

I'll also give a smile to Trump for being a Supermodel in this last episode when he made a comment about Kathy Griffin picking on him for his hair.



He wanted to be the bigger person and role model with how to deal when people pick on you.
Donald Trump, for you it is a different story. You already realistically have the job, the title, and the life.
I have realistically been discriminated against. There are always different things to say and cover ups, but I have been criticized and discriminated to my face with my own body issues.
So, I think it's nice that you be the big person, but our life realities and situations are not the same.

I also reflected a little on an earlier episode. Sometimes, there is so much info that I don't always fit everything in. It was regarding Liza. Forgetting about a connection with my Aunt Lisa, I was bothered that she went with the statistics. Maybe she is just the type that does not like to fight or deal with some things, but I am bothered that she went with the statistics concerning her race. Maybe you think she was strong to be real with herself, but I hate that it is encouraged that people let themselves evolve with surroundings, statistics, and conformity. I evolve to things every so often in my own choice, but I really think she should have ignored statistics.

Anyway, I wanted to add more in there. Bon Jovi and MIA are usually going to remain my answer when it comes to controlling and territorial situations.

But, it was nice to have some interactions and moments with you.
Happy Holidays.

Catching Up

I go through periods where it ranges how busy I am. Lately, I have been very busy. I still caught up on the last two episodes of the Apprentice show.

I reflected back on Pine Street yesterday while brainstorming in my wondering mind and I remember some things I had said years and years ago during my breakdown. I was angry and yelled at Josh and said that he was fired, or something along those lines. I did not realize how heavily I was being watched and still to this day do not understand, even back then, the people who were involved in my life and whatever reason it was that they watched me for. Anyway, very soon after I made the statement that Josh was fired, Trump came out with his show of the Apprentice where "You're Fired," is one of his most famous lines on the show. Maybe his family was just picking on me at the time. I really do not know, but I guess they thought it might have been funny or entertaining enough to carry on the line of "You're Fired." Several years later, I still do not see or understand the complete picture in my life.

Staying focused on just the show itself, I'm curious to see it to the end. In episode 11, there is not really a lot I have to discuss. It gives info though to keep up with the entire season's story.
I thought episode 12 was a little more entertaining. I was surprised to see that they brought back the entire cast, and in these last few episodes, I will not be able to see this Thursday's because I will be at my job. I will rewatch it though. Anyway, I still have yet to know everyone's identity that is in my world. Clint kind of looks like my cousin a little bit, but my guess could be off.
I'm not surprised and bothered with the religious box that I am put in. I don't know who writes the script. If Mahsa speaks for herself, it is for her sake that I don't condone. As for whoever is responsible for presenting me, I am mad, because even though it is still a show for entertainment, my reputation in business is still on the line. I feel like I am being labeled as being religious-based in business. I think there are definitely hawks out there who do not have an over all balanced perspective that just wait for me to say something that regards religion in some way to paint me to be some kind of religious nut. The pigeon holing and boxing once again bothers me.
They did acknowledge though that I do defend myself and may be wrong in interpretation of the mispelling, but I think they may be trying to tell me back that they acknowledge my thoughts in another argument as well even though it is not clearly broadcast.

Kathy Griffin. I have not really been paying attention to her a lot on her in the media. I pick up on some pieces of info in the media and I think she is part of the booby battle. I can see how people in high school or maybe even relentless or desperate women competing over a man with using the boob issue as part of their competition may use boobs to argue over something. However, it really isn't an agenda that I would choose to argue with.
Even though Kathy and other people may be favored or have a majority vote, I really have already lost respect for them and their crowd to make the booby battle such a huge argument. When I get in a serious fight, I use relevant and practical info in my battles. I use truthful info to back up my arguments.
I think its a trashy idea altogether regardless of how much class a person may present boobs to literally go to a war and make such a huge issue over breast size.
Regardless of the winner or "loser," I have already lost respect and think people are so sick with anger to use this low of a strategy for their war to win whatever.

I am curious to see how this last episode will go through and will have to catch up with it on another day to see how it works out.

smiling and perplexed

I do feel paranoid with Stephanie's character and I obviously can't solve the puzzle where it seems I have been fired since day 1, and at the end, Stephanie works at Rockport for the Trump name.

I am still confident in myself, but not so ridiculous to say I am more sophisticated and/or with a more complex intelligence. With numerous issues, pretentiousness and arrogance of others is one of them and even though I am queen of my own world, I still like to try to be humble when up against others who may be more sophisticated than me.

I really do not see the ultimate agenda of the show or what it is the Trumps are looking for and seeking.

In this specific episode, I am still puzzled in itself. I could see some of the ties that were being made, but I still consider it to be Matrix manipulation. It was a definite twisted contradiction when I said: "I am nobody's entertainment ot TV," as Jr had mentioned. It was really in a real workplace where I said it where it was relevant. It wasn't really verbalized to literally demand me to be entertaining, but when it came to competing in the specific workplace I am at, I am literally there to work and to be competitive over who is the best entertainer should not be a priority, focus, and really has no relevance to the job. This is how I am perplexed, and maybe he is just BSing about it not having any "common sense." There is no equal or adequate connection in comparison.

I take it as a major compliment though where he says I am being honest. I think character and ethics is a high priority, but it is among other priorities as well that I think I mentioned in an earlier blog of what I think is most important in my world.
I'm really not surprised with Stuart's comments. .............writing him off.....

In trying to see the complete picture of the show; I don't know why I am there. I don't know what the agenda is. I can't see the big picture. I do not understand it.

Oh yes I did

Yes, I did tell someone to shut the F$#%! up.
I loved Mahsa's dressing attire at the end (wink wink)
naughty guys. I still have not made the choice to be an exhibitionist.

I really do not see what the ultimate agenda is getting at.
I do not know why I'm on the show other than the real idea of it being a literal show that is translated differently.
Brandy or Kate Hudson. YES, I AM BEING VERY DISLOYAL. IT IS INTENTIONAL.

Mr. Trump, if I was in a real work place performing a real job, my behavior might be a little different and I would expect that you should think that Kate or Brandy's behavior were different as well.
In a professional work environment, I do try to show professionalism, but when I see its more of a show, or really a different agenda where I do not think the socialistic setting is an actual match for a workplace, I really do not care.
If you really want me to be analytic, look at how you put the scatterings together. I think I'm talking to John Stewart, and it looks like Brandy wants to claim the name "Johnny." Rigging and rackateering happens all of the time, but in this specific example, the name was disguised, the setting was not the real place of where it happened.
I think it is a shame that it happens in my real work places and even educational places.
And a reminder about the class issue, class is not my highest priority. Competence, excelllent work, character (class is only a style), and humanitarianism are my personal highest priorities.
As for me being humanitarian? No, I don't have respect for Brandy/Kate/Leeza. I'm not ashamed to admit it either.
It is more of a defense and unwillingness to be their scapegoat. I hate the Mahsa was a pushover in the episode, but while I watched it, I said, "You're right that I'm disloyal and disrespectful."

One of my favorite songs "Papillon," has been blown. What a pearl and good secret of a song. You want to know why there was no contact info?:



I hate my life.
I am getting rigged, racketed, abused, and drowned constantly.
I suffer from a lot of inadequate judgement.
In a workplace, I usually do want to make effort to get along with people. BUT, when I deal with some people and see what they expect me to put up with, I unashamedly get self-centered. You were right on that judgement when it is about "me."
I was never trying to be a "team member," with any of the characters.
Like I said, I talk to commies all of the time. Controlled environments and rigging is nothing new to me.
I do not blame Mr. Trump in entirety. I blame the system, I blame corruption, lack of character, lack of honest backed-up and hard-worked judgement. I see mostly denial and laziness and ARROGANCE. UGH. ugh.

And since we are talking music and communism, I'll have another musical song:

I'm going to have to watch it again

I think I mentally walked around too many blocks today, and my energy is already spent.
But, the things I picked up on.....
Always things I keep to myself. ;0)
The modeling show with the men doing the catwalk on the woman's team..........
Tristan? I see this as another cheap cancer. Tristan was a neighbor friend that I grew up with and went to church with. We went separate ways in high school and sometimes run into each other. She is a hippy now. But, in the movie with Brad Pitt, that is where the cancer is. They want to connect her with Josh and have a cancerous insane exploit. Yes, I still hate Josh. No, I don't have sexual feelings for Tristan. Not going to be a victim of stockholm, I think the interrogator/"psychologist" needs to be bitch slapped. I saw another tumor cell of someone else, and remember the end of the movie: Tristan fought the law against prohibition and the law won when they killed him. Yay, fun story. What is the point of using Tristan? I'm out of guesses.
Oh, and "Katherine," I consider another tumor. I think its probably the actual Katherine who thinks she can probably fool me by looking like me, but no, she is a tumor. Stop barbying me and Josh together, it is sick.

Then, on the men's team. shoes. love shoes. Most of it was about Gene (my father). I really don't have a comment.

I don't have any other thoughts.